It has been a while since I audited my day, and it seems like I get more done when I do, I must not be trying hard enough.

The snow this morning was pretty bad causing everyone to drive slow; somewheres between 50-55 on County Rd. 23, except for a couple of trucks driving 60 or more.

My uncle has been staying over since Monday and re-installed Grandma’s washer and dryer in the kitchen so she don’t have to go down stairs. Last night Grandma says “It’s horrible to get old” with a look at me like I should agree and sympathetically I did: considering what things might be like for me when I get old.
All of company left this morning to venture the iced roads, hope everyone’s journey was comfortable, suiting the ever so changing need to see something familiar or changing, and not to forget I hope the drive was also safe and successful.

I don’t get in to all the jibber jabber so much when we have company but I really do enjoy those one on one conversations with people, maybe I am just a little more reserved in multi faceted conversations. Could possibly be that I am still a little childish and have to have all or nothing in regards to attention, If the conversation isn’t real important or turns in a way that don’t interest me I tend to leave, but it’s not hurting me so long as there wasn’t anything immediately important that had to be communicated to me but when I do take an interest I become really focused especially if I find those who are talking to be wise from my perception. That reminds me, my sister, her husband and an older couple that have been friends with Grandma since I can remember were out last weekend; Saturday night to be specific. Dinner was good, and so was conversation about the different “kids” religions, but I wasn’t fond of playing dice this night, so I left for a friend of mine’s house that had gotten parts for my car and was ready to help me install them. Car runs great now, I am glad I found something more constructive to do than go to the bar or something. While I was out at my friends house we also found an old satellite dish that I will use for a bi-quad antenna.

Having company this week was awesome, my uncles significant other made a couple of awesome meals and so did grandma, it seems the act of preparing and eating our meals this carried a significant importance and pride for everyone. My uncle whom I haven’t ok’d using his name on my public web site yet is uploading pictures of everything he did this week on facebook. We will have to rummage up more wood pretty soon as it was definitely used this week. It is nice to see that everyone is making good plans for the future and lives seem to be going in the right direction, which is not subject for speculation. Well could be subject to speculation but I like to believe everything is going right.

I have still been researching trying to decide on a good router but not exactly sure how to use both a directional antenna and an omni-directional antenna on a router with a single sma connection. I don’t want to cross connect signal reception from different points, so if I have 2 antenna I believe I will need to dampen one to a single point in the house so it doesn’t conflict with the other. I am now considering Asus WL-500 I have to make sure it dose everything I need, this project seems to be the only thing I want to talk about recently and I wish I had a little more input on it. Still have to find an rg58 sma to N cable, looked at a couple of sites that cut them to size, but I plan to talk to the second year networking students at my school to see if they can help me first.

I am working on cultural math now as it is due and I am still behind a section. It is interesting though as we are demonstrating how to prove a statement is true and all the different possibilities of the variables in the statement.

Today’s math lecture leads me to think about using the same techniques to analyze movement and direction in a way that uses Boolean math. I am also thinking about how a set of principals can be used to analyze peoples actions that are metaphoric of or a demonstration of there inhibitions and desires that are below the surface. Basically a persons wants and needs deduced by their conduct based on personal insights of an observer labeled as principals, I then proceeded to consider other’s principals that may be different but are limited to deduce from a shared set of possibilities; shared between all observers and principals. Maybe we can find something more than mean, median and mode of a certain group and consider tracing back the possibilities to there underlying root actions and perceptions, breaking it down into concrete terms, variables and symbols, this might allow us to tally up a weight found in different aspects of the process that contributed to the outcome.

I am now at home writing my journal and trying to think of other things that have happened since I last wrote. I do have all of my books now and everything seems to be going well, I did stop at Osceola last friday to take care of a few things, but came back right away. I guess there are more problems that have arisen but that is nothing new. I have been captivated by the spirit realm twice since I last wrote and considered spiritual enlightenment with friends on my mind 4-8 times that I can really count off the top of my head, not considering duration and intermission of my thought focus, but I can say these thoughts were have arose from within without physical stimuli, but may have caused psychosomatic feelings, usually lovely and protective as I must be slightly standoffish sometimes in thought.

Ok enough analyzing my thought process, I had to go up to dairy queen in town to post this as the signal at home is very intermittent. I will probably have some chicken and a mocha iced as it is fairly warm outside. It always seems to snow when it’s warm out, I guess I will take the warmth with the snow over the cold any day. The little bit of shoveling I had to do today was quick and easy. When I get home I have to bring a couple of things downstairs for g’ma as she isn’t wondering into the basement anymore. Still working on math and I will continue writing tomorrow, prolly start out with tonight’s sleep experience and a beautiful good morning.

Stuff I need to work on, ethics write a few questions in response to ethics chap 3 & 4, write a couple questions on Catholicism and the chapter after that in world religions, complete the review for chap 4 in networking, do some ruby, and catch up in cultural math

Good morning Tuesday morning, 5:00am: I am racing to put together the questions for chapter 2 wired in networking this morning and upload it before the drop box closes and class starts at 8:00am. It took a little while but I was ready and out of the house by Seven O’Clock; when I joyfully meet the frigid air and get into my car which really doesn’t have very good heat, just enough to defrost the windows and barely allow me to take my gloves off half way to class on a really cold morning.

I arrived and uploaded my assignment right away, spending what time was left studying for the test. The test went alright, I achieved about 82% out of 25 questions. This was my only class today, so I left for home right away. I wanted to pick up my Ruby on Rails book, but I had not brought enough cash, so I figured I would come back, post yesterdays journal entry and get my book. I have to make my journal posts from school as I don’t get very good reception of my neighbors Wifi some days. Good idea: chew Five Gum instead of smoking and research Android.

So I came back to school and got my book, I then proceeded to the media center to post my entry, then proceeded to start writing my life philosophy for ethics. I was having a hard time retaining concentration so I left to study at the library in Milaca. At the library I researched networking equipment for a wireless bridge that supports dd-wrt and external antenna, I am trying to find the cheapest possible combination for a powered antenna and wireless bridge with a range of 20 meters or more omni-directional from the crest of the house. Here are the links to what I have found so far.
ASUS RT-N16 review $$
Asus RT-N16 dd-wrt wiki
ASUS RT-N10 EZ N (no dd-wrt support) cheaper w/ext. antenna
NETGEAR-WNR834B (no ext. antenna good price
Signal booster with antenna $$

So it looks like for the more optimal performance I would like the Asus RT-N16,
For me to set up internet at the house I have to set up my own line in my name, and there is only one phone line in the house so this could be expensive, The neighbors let me use there wifi which I use right now, but barely. This little gadget may be worth the investment, but I am still going to keep looking, I am not going to settle for expensive or limited capabilities, the 20 dollar netgear has good reviews on range, and is cheap but it is important to have the ability to amplify my signal on an external antenna.

After this all I went home and continued writing my life philosophy, and it really turned into an ancient writing on the wall about how one should live, tending to themselves, family, friends and neighbors. I am going to put a crack in the page somewhere to add part of an ethics paper I did in my technical writing class with a focus on my field of study.

My eyes have scanned a lot of pages today, the math I did along with starting class at 10:00am and leaving at 9:00pm leaves me wore out this Tuesday evening, I decided to sleep at 6:30 I then woke up at 10 O’Clock had a cigarette I have cultural math tomorrow; Wednesday morning.

After a long weekend, It is now back to class on a Monday morning, Ice was bad and blustery this morning but it was still a fairly decent drive. Though I was still wore out, because I partied a little this weekend, and put a few miles on my car. I drove to Anoka, Osceola, and I got lost 45miles+60miles+ (60 mile for missing my exit and being entirely enthused by music), it was dark friday night and all the signs looked the same not particularly demanding my attention. So I was making a beeline for Duluth and didn’t realize I had gone to far until I hit rush city and had to make a U turn when I found out the roads were glare ice. Its all good the darkness and the landmark I was looking for wasn’t there or I should say holiday gas stations lights were off as it was after closing hours. After turning around I finally made it to Osceola. I  went to the gas station a couple of times while I was out there and just for the sake of keeping track I then drove the hour and a half home from Osceola.

Now back to today..
I have a check list:

• Catch up all assignments in cultural math;
• Get my World Religions book and rails book
• Write Questions for World Religions and Ethics
• and complete chapter 2 questions for networking
• hopefully add the SEO Friendly URL Structure for Wordpress plug-in Here
• Get a page or something up to view my category definitions in a nice readable format.
• Ponder creating a plug-in to group categories instead of sub-categorizing
• Setup a display format similar to categories for groups.
• Add a ticket system for website enhancements and not clutter up my journal

Well it seems I haven’t been able to accomplish quite everything on my list today but it has become somewhat interesting. I was short cash to purchase my rails book but that can wait until tomorrow. I did catch up my math but was unable to turn the last assignment into the instructor because he had already left.

I was so entirely focused on what I have been doing today I just took for granted my belief that world religions started at 5:00 but I was mistaken and noticed the students in the classroom so I waltzed in a half hour late and wrote up my questions in class.  World religions left me wondering about gods effect on nature, and the possibilities of heaven, spiritual influences, and the idea of multiple gods, though we were talking about Christianity I couldn’t help thinking, when our instructor mentioned the idea of the earthquakes in Haiti being an act of God that there might be that possibility, but it’s hard for me to believe that an all loving God I grew up with in a Christian home, is capable of this, however I do give considerable thought that lower level gods of the earth, waters, fire and nature, are capable of doing this, but I can’t consider this a bad thing as it is a form of renewal and motivation. It is the balance that we need in this earthly world, because without good there can’t be bad, without bad there can’t be good and the natural cycle of bad and good, shows so many possibilities of good that can arise from the bad we seek, and I say we because we all have that deviant side. It’ those times when you ask yourself, How can all this bad stuff in my life recently put me in such a beautiful situation to spend more time with my passing loved one. Maybe the god almighty lets the others know when certain things have to happen.

The drive home in the dark was good.  

The spirit of man, gods and magik have bled there way into my life through curiosity, and the just need to have some form of understanding of how and why coincidental things happen in life; why at different seasons of the year do I feel a social longing and greater connection with divine entities and where exactly is earths place amongst the heavens? I really would love to explore how karma influences destiny and the spiritual bonds that bind so many together.

Throughout this exploration I have taken time to read a few books on intuition and mysticism but more recently have enrolled in a class not just to satisfy a World Perspective degree requirement but to also, subject myself to more possibly greater influences in different religions. Maybe a little insight through the knowledge and understanding of others will help me find what I’m looking for hopefully making more sense of what I believe.

The course I am taking Comparative Religions, has a home work assignment that requires observing or participating in a religious gathering or organized worship that we  haven’t ventured to ever participate in before: Actually twice once in the first half of the semester and once in the second half.

So at one time I probably would have defined myself as a christian mystic with a belief in Karma, and reincarnation. I have never really given much thought to the possibility of there being multiple gods except as fantasy and mythology. Thus I have decided to look into and attend a gathering and ritual ceremony in the Minneapolis metro area for followers of Wicca, Nordic,  and Celtic traditions.  I think each group shares a similar but slightly different belief and may tend to specific heritages of there own.

Here are links to some of the events I am considering.
Imbolc Celebration Jan. 31st. 2010

Oimelc: February 6, 2010
Open New Moon Ritual

Hopefully I don’t go it alone, though I would because if I don’t, I wouldn’t know what I was missing.