Fri, Feb 5th: jrnl-entry

It has been a while since I audited my day, and it seems like I get more done when I do, I must not be trying hard enough.

The snow this morning was pretty bad causing everyone to drive slow; somewheres between 50-55 on County Rd. 23, except for a couple of trucks driving 60 or more.

My uncle has been staying over since Monday and re-installed Grandma’s washer and dryer in the kitchen so she don’t have to go down stairs. Last night Grandma says “It’s horrible to get old” with a look at me like I should agree and sympathetically I did: considering what things might be like for me when I get old.
All of company left this morning to venture the iced roads, hope everyone’s journey was comfortable, suiting the ever so changing need to see something familiar or changing, and not to forget I hope the drive was also safe and successful.

I don’t get in to all the jibber jabber so much when we have company but I really do enjoy those one on one conversations with people, maybe I am just a little more reserved in multi faceted conversations. Could possibly be that I am still a little childish and have to have all or nothing in regards to attention, If the conversation isn’t real important or turns in a way that don’t interest me I tend to leave, but it’s not hurting me so long as there wasn’t anything immediately important that had to be communicated to me but when I do take an interest I become really focused especially if I find those who are talking to be wise from my perception. That reminds me, my sister, her husband and an older couple that have been friends with Grandma since I can remember were out last weekend; Saturday night to be specific. Dinner was good, and so was conversation about the different “kids” religions, but I wasn’t fond of playing dice this night, so I left for a friend of mine’s house that had gotten parts for my car and was ready to help me install them. Car runs great now, I am glad I found something more constructive to do than go to the bar or something. While I was out at my friends house we also found an old satellite dish that I will use for a bi-quad antenna.

Having company this week was awesome, my uncles significant other made a couple of awesome meals and so did grandma, it seems the act of preparing and eating our meals this carried a significant importance and pride for everyone. My uncle whom I haven’t ok’d using his name on my public web site yet is uploading pictures of everything he did this week on facebook. We will have to rummage up more wood pretty soon as it was definitely used this week. It is nice to see that everyone is making good plans for the future and lives seem to be going in the right direction, which is not subject for speculation. Well could be subject to speculation but I like to believe everything is going right.

I have still been researching trying to decide on a good router but not exactly sure how to use both a directional antenna and an omni-directional antenna on a router with a single sma connection. I don’t want to cross connect signal reception from different points, so if I have 2 antenna I believe I will need to dampen one to a single point in the house so it doesn’t conflict with the other. I am now considering Asus WL-500 I have to make sure it dose everything I need, this project seems to be the only thing I want to talk about recently and I wish I had a little more input on it. Still have to find an rg58 sma to N cable, looked at a couple of sites that cut them to size, but I plan to talk to the second year networking students at my school to see if they can help me first.

I am working on cultural math now as it is due and I am still behind a section. It is interesting though as we are demonstrating how to prove a statement is true and all the different possibilities of the variables in the statement.

Today’s math lecture leads me to think about using the same techniques to analyze movement and direction in a way that uses Boolean math. I am also thinking about how a set of principals can be used to analyze peoples actions that are metaphoric of or a demonstration of there inhibitions and desires that are below the surface. Basically a persons wants and needs deduced by their conduct based on personal insights of an observer labeled as principals, I then proceeded to consider other’s principals that may be different but are limited to deduce from a shared set of possibilities; shared between all observers and principals. Maybe we can find something more than mean, median and mode of a certain group and consider tracing back the possibilities to there underlying root actions and perceptions, breaking it down into concrete terms, variables and symbols, this might allow us to tally up a weight found in different aspects of the process that contributed to the outcome.

I am now at home writing my journal and trying to think of other things that have happened since I last wrote. I do have all of my books now and everything seems to be going well, I did stop at Osceola last friday to take care of a few things, but came back right away. I guess there are more problems that have arisen but that is nothing new. I have been captivated by the spirit realm twice since I last wrote and considered spiritual enlightenment with friends on my mind 4-8 times that I can really count off the top of my head, not considering duration and intermission of my thought focus, but I can say these thoughts were have arose from within without physical stimuli, but may have caused psychosomatic feelings, usually lovely and protective as I must be slightly standoffish sometimes in thought.

Ok enough analyzing my thought process, I had to go up to dairy queen in town to post this as the signal at home is very intermittent. I will probably have some chicken and a mocha iced as it is fairly warm outside. It always seems to snow when it’s warm out, I guess I will take the warmth with the snow over the cold any day. The little bit of shoveling I had to do today was quick and easy. When I get home I have to bring a couple of things downstairs for g’ma as she isn’t wondering into the basement anymore. Still working on math and I will continue writing tomorrow, prolly start out with tonight’s sleep experience and a beautiful good morning.

Stuff I need to work on, ethics write a few questions in response to ethics chap 3 & 4, write a couple questions on Catholicism and the chapter after that in world religions, complete the review for chap 4 in networking, do some ruby, and catch up in cultural math